Drowning in sorrow

To my brothers who know what happened....

Well.. blame it on my single mindness and being naive. Well... things doesnt always happen the way you want it to be.

Hmmm... Maybe only in my work have i been in control of my fate and outcomes.. Beside tat.. its been downhill and unpredictable. Wat happened?? I love to think its bcos that God has a plan for me and that whatever it is now is God's will to test my patience and knowing that I should deserve more!

Am i shallow? or I think i deserved more? That been the buzz word lingering in my head since yesterday. Cant get it out of my mind !! Maybe I should look wider and see wat others have to offer and stop being so perfectionist abt how I feel i deserve. Does hard work really pays?
At the moment, I dont think so...

Had a chat with colleagues and they cant seem to understand why Im feeling this way! Am i alien? Or am i expecting too much of myself. Who do I think i am to expect so much. Drown myself over the wines we bought and had a good laugh.

A caution to all my frenz: "With expectations comes pain"

Well.. getting too emotional now... and maybe a good nite rest will help!

Drowning Anz