PAIN/HURT/SORROW

Damn..

Got "Foxtrot" today by boss and missed my ceremony. Big boss wasnt happy that i missed it. Too many things built up suddenly and i was stressed out. Mind went a complete blank. If not for Chan.. I would have been in deep shit.

It doesnt help when my chaps doesnt know a thing about the processes and not keen to read up to find out about all the different procedures and rules in place.

Issit my fault that i havent taught them well?
I cant possibly be explaining all the time where to find the data and why issit like that... Its just too much for me to handle

Scold them? Blame them? and ME the badie again... I had enough...

Sorry.. in a bad mood today. Just couldnt accept the cold fact in reality that ppl are just working to earn a living? and when things are not re-iterated, they are swept under the carpet hoping that no one will uncover it again.

Are there still PRIDE in their work? Are they conscious of what they draw at the end of the month? Any nightmares when they sleep?....Guess there isnt any..

Probably its just ME.. still living in my own ideal world vis-a-vis the perfectionist in ME. Unable to co-exist in this reality.

Maybe im fated to be unhappy...

A bug's world of pain